Trapped

I am trapped in a box

It used to be comfortable for me

But then I got out

I liked that more 

But somehow I am back

Its hot in here

And dark

I cant breathe 

Or move

Do i try to get comfortable

Or do fight to get out

It seems outside of my ability 

To control the outcome

It hurts to stay here

I can see out

I see the light but its warmth doesnt reach me

I see the people around me smile

Laughing in the light

I want out there

And they call me to come

But nothing I do seems to free me from this place.

Maybe it would be easier

Just to let it swallow me.

It hurts to get out

I punch and fight

Until I cant do it anymore

The harder I fight it the more it engulfs me

If i only I had never gotten out

Maybe it wouldnt hurt so much

That I am trapped in a box

I am trapped in a box

That used to be comfortable

Now that I got out

I dont like it so much

So tell me how I got back 

O how do i keep getting back here?