Gains and Losses

I'm someone's daughter.
Who just doesn't know her father.

If you are wondering about me, I grew up just fine.

But I can't stop thinking about why you left me behind.

What is it like to have a dad?

That's one relationship I wish I had.

When i was younger i'd sit around and wait.
Hoping for a card or present from you on my birth date.


There's no relationship here
To salvage or recreate.
No such thing as father and daughter bond between you and I,
It is way too late.

I can recall every night that I carried myself to bed and wept.

How come you didn't want me?
But you have other children that you have raised up and kept.
I can't believe after so many years i'm still sad and upset.


All of this over an irresponsible, unreliable man
Who is supposed to be my dad, a person i've never met.

In a way i'm thankful and grateful that you had left me.

If you hadn't, i wouldn't have grown up to be the person
That i have turned out to be.

All I ever wanted was to be daddy's lil girl
And make you proud of me.

But you weren't there when i needed you,

You weren't there at my graduation

And you won't be the one
To walk me down the aisle at my wedding,
These are pictures of events which you'll never get to see.

When I have kids of my own,
I'll love them with all my heart there's nothing i won't give.
I'll never be the way you were to them,
When you had me that's something i'll swear by as long as I live.

Unlike you i keep my promises to my every word.

Now I live for myself and am moving on with my life,

Moving forward.

Time and time again

I count you as a loss

But now I know the truth

It didn’t hurt me like I know it hurt you

All I have is gains

Making me the person that I am today

That is the one thing that you gave to me

And for that I say thanks dad.